So...it's now 3:20 am and i'm still up. I must be insomniatic..this is crazy. I may have no lectures tomorrow but really come on what am i doing? I just can't help it...i can't go to bed..i can't stand sitting here but i can't think of anything else but him. I need to recieve a message from him before i sleep...i won't be able to otherwise. I actually hate this situation..it's bloody awful! All i ever seem to be is fucked over by guys or care for t hem too much. Once i get an idea in my head i will be so stubborn as to not appreciate or accept other people's views...it's crazy. Friends say i'm different..that i have changed..that i'm maturing...i guess that's a good thing but i feel more vulnerable than i have ever done in my life. It's just..shit.
I don't know why i made t his account. I think it's more of a cry for help to be honest. The t hing is though...i'm not going to get any help here or anywhere else..that's just how it is.
I have perfected the skill of suffering in silence...it looks like i'm going to have to get used to it.
Ok...so i feel very alone right now...i need to be able to talk to people....i just want to be listened to...i ....well he's added on here..soon will be...i care for him so much....i just don't know what to do...i think i care too much...and it's breaking me in half...i can't cope. But yeah i'm usually a happy person. My name is Katie, i live in the UK, training in veterinary and yeah...i thought this would be good :)
